I have been watching an incredible series on Formed this week called The Wild Goose, with Fr. Dave Pivonka. It is a series about the Holy Spirit and I have found it very comforting and revealing during a challenging time.
I think we all come to a time in our lives when it’s not working anymore, and we realise we can’t keep trying to do it all on our own. Not that we are intentionally trying to do it alone. I pray. I attend Mass. I talk with God a lot. I even pray the rosary every day, devoting a decade to a different person. And I was feeling pretty good about my job, my plans, and my life in general.
Then lockdown happened and I was suddenly re-evaluating everything.
When I returned to work, nothing seemed to fit anymore.
Then, to really cap it all off, I was feeling confused about a friendship in my life.
Fasting & Prayer, of Course
So I fasted and prayed for three days – and I received incredible clarity that knocked me off my feet and told me something I didn’t want to hear, and I had no idea how to proceed.
So the next week I fasted and prayed for another three days – and was given clear direction. Not that I was happy with it. I was clearly being told to walk away from a situation and it was very hard to do it. But I did.
And for the last few weeks, I’ve been feeling disorientated and lacklustre. But there was something even more powerful going on. I was talking with the Holy Spirit every day. Asking for His presence. Asking for His gifts. And seeing the fruits of those gifts in my life. Acting on the knowledge I was being shown – even though it caused me pain to do so – has opened up a whole new world to me.
For the previous two days, I have felt incredible joy (after feeling jaded, burnt out, and disappointed for weeks). Then today I’ve felt like I’ve been holding a magnificent revelation in my gently cupped hands. A revelation that wants to burst out and take flight: the Holy Spirit has been moving in my life, communicating with me, sharing hard but loving truths, and showing me the way forward. He has not abandoned me for a second. He has been with me every step of the way. He is always with me. He is constantly showing me the joyful path. I just have to trust Him completely.
It feels like I have made a breakthrough.
I am not on my own.
I am not propelling myself forward in any capacity.
I just need to turn up and listen for guidance. And act on it.
And even when it feels hard I just need to trust because these last few weeks have shown me that the triune is looking out for me. And that the Holy Spirit is here, ever-present, moving within my life, being my constant companion. He does not lead me wrong. He knows exactly what I need. I just need to allow it. And I need to allow Him to work in my life in His own good time.
I am feeling very blessed and grateful.
This Week’s Song
Your presence…(Holy Spirit – written by Bryan & Katie Torwalt; sung by Jeremy Mayfield & Marissa Cazalas)
This week’s song is a beautiful song by Bryan Torwalt and Katie Torwalt and is the theme song used in The Wild Goose series about The Holy Spirit.
Holy Spirit, You are welcome here
Come flood this place and fill the atmosphere
Your glory, God, is what our hearts long for
To be overcome by Your Presence, Lord(Holy Spirit – written by Bryan & Katie Torwalt; sung by Jeremy Mayfield & Marissa Cazalas)
The song is called Holy Spirit and, although Jesus Culture do have a good version, I really like the one below sung by Jeremy Mayfield and Marissa Cazalas, which is the version used as the theme song in The Wild Goose. Enjoy!
O Spirit, Come!(Holy Spirit – written by Bryan & Katie Torwalt; sung by Jeremy Mayfield & Marissa Cazalas)
YouTube Link to Holy Spirit
How has the Holy Spirit been working in your life? Are you aware of His presence? Has He been showing you some tough love and burning through your life? Or is He being a bit more gentle with you? I’d love to hear about your experiences here.
And remember to continually ask: “O Spirit, come!” It might feel like it will only bring disruption and discomfort to your life – but only if that is needed to clear the way for something much better. He is a loving friend. You can trust Him.